Ponderings

an-ailsa:

Darling, how is it that

You are trapped in my head

But I’m the one 

Trying to escape?

Darling, why is it that

I’m clawing at myself

To get you 

Out of my mind?

White Wall

Scratch the white wall until there are trails
Just like a heart that is torn into pieces
Bang the white wall until the room shakes
Just like the mind you have messed up 
Kick the white wall until there are footprints 
No matter how hard I try, I can’t erase it
Sit down behind the white wall
Until I forget how to breathe 

Rain Is A Friend

Rain is as human as me
It is moving and alive
I hear its chilling melody
My heart returns its call

Rain is ever so nice
It hides my tears away
The waters embrace me
When the pain is too much

Rain knows where to find me
It’s there whenever I need
A friend to be a company

Just a stare outside the window
While it’s raining hard
And I’ll be alright

Wrong Scene

What game are we playing now?
Or is this a serious business?
Both options are making sense
This whole thing is a puzzle 

We are for each other
But we met in a wrong scene 
Letting this go will hurt me
But take it or leave it 

You Little Thief

the-broken-home-still-shines:

You are the thief of my love.

You came in the middle of the night and stole it for yourself.

I have never been able to take it back, so you still have my love.

I wish I could take it back because now you don’t want it.

But I cant seem to take it back from you yet.

I need you to hold on to it for a bit longer.

One day I’ll find you, little, thief, and i will take my love back.

Or maybe I’ll let it sit with you because you successfully took it.

I can’t decide.

Still

jadedragonfarm:

The pillow still smells of you days after you left
Did my beating heart betray me?
I guess I should know better than to fall so fast
Screaming inside my head, I drop to my knees

After all why should this it last, this happiness?
Dust piles up around me, I’ve forgotten again
Burying m head in my bones, my tears
One more day then I’ll see, misery

 Skinless treads, tracing the marks
Soundless footsteps carrying forward
Glimpse of memories to keep me here
 Sinking into the sheets I dream

Blonde And Pink Highlights

I want to dye my hair blonde
Since it’s black since I was born
And I get bored with its normality
I want to be blonde
I want to feel misplaced
Maybe I’ll add some
Soft pink highlights
Is that mainstream or hipster?
It’s hiding but it’s everywhere
A blonde Asian
Too usual, but for me
It’s a step out of the line 
That’s why this is not going to happen 

All of Sudden

Like a ghost you show yourself in front of me
You were once hiding behind our memories
Now look at this chaos, my broken heart
This is all confusing for my worn out mind

Crumpled paper can never be smooth again 
If you want to come back, just remember
Pieces of my heart are tiny already
So watch your move, don’t hurt me 

Forcing

If love can’t bring you back to me
If love can’t make you stand here
Will love be able to make you cry
Just by the thought of me
Loving someone else? 

Will it hurt you if I go away
Forever like, never come back?
My heart wishes that it would
I just need you to be mine
For the second time